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ESCAPE
(add TRY To ESCAPE
(airplanes?
(legions?
  
Escape. Prove that you can escape
  
Escape from what
  
Just escape
  
Escape from what
  
(Pause
Prove that you are thge greatest escape artist. Right now-- here-- escape
  
There’s nothing to escape from here
I can’t escape
  
I bet you can escape
  
No. I bet he can’t escape
  
Suppose he invented an airplane, with banannas for engines.
Would escape be possible in such an airplane
  
Too late
  
Is it dark already
  
Yes. It’s dark for airplanes with banannas for engines
  
Too late
  
What kind of fruit do you like
  
Too late
  
  
  
See if you can make any sense out of this story
  
I don’t like stories
  
Everybody likes stories
  
Tell me.
  
The fighter airplanes say
we are alone on earth.
Therefore, to speak is an exercise in futility.
They are blind, they are deak. They have no tactile sensations. They consider themselves the most frustrated of beings and drop many bombs without hesitation.
  
I knew it. I knew it was like that
  
The one thing they lust for is aesthetic sensibility
but that too is denied them
  
Can I help?
  
No. But help
  
Why this anguish?
The sudden warmth of his invitation seized me. I got a headach from holding back
  
Can I help?
  
No. But help.
  
It's one of my favorite words. No. It's my favorite word.
  
I help whenever I get help
  
The more times you can use the word help in a sentence, the more it helps.
  
Help myself.
  
Help yourself.
  
Help yourself to the word help, which is how I help myself.
  
(Pause)
  
Help yourself to some fruit.
  
I don't think I should eat right now.
(Pause)
One of the most potent ideas I ever had, ever, was the idea that in the center of the fruit was a pit, and the pit was the radio in the center of the fruit. And the whole fruit helps-- the radio in the center of the fruit.
  
My ear; helps.
  
My ear was help also.
  
Does this help? My ear helps.
  
(Pause)
Have some fruit now
  
Eat it, or let it turn into the radio that it is.
  
In the Hotel Radio, the fruit placed in bowls which sit on small tables in each room-- no radios in rooms, but fruit in rooms, and in the center of the fruit, is a radio.
  
(Pause)
I imagine flying over the city and seeing the letters painted on the tops of buildings spelling the words " Radio".
  
(In radio)
  
Where shall I put it
  
I'd rather have my suitcases delivered
  
Soon
  
when
  
soon
  
When is soon
  
The radio could take your mind off your problems
  
Is that true?
  
Sometimes
  
Plug it in but don't turn it on
  
No. You plug it in
  
(Pause)
Just put it on the table
  
(done, gone)
  
Self discovery in a room. This does not seem possible.
  
Escape. Prove you can escape
  
How
  
Spin, so that everything mixes in everything else
  
No
  
You spin internally
  
(Pause
Yes. Internally
  
But if I look close, I should be able to pick up on that
  
That must be a spcial talent
  
No-- you're the one with the special talent
  
I dodn't say so
  
(Pause)
You didn't have to say so to somebody else with special talent
  
Hello
  
Careful, I am not myself
  
Well, in a certain sense I am not myself either
(Pause
From whence arises my bitterness. My despondency
  
I have no idea
  
Don’t worry. Nothing I say is serious, after all
  
You look serious. Your face looks serious
  
But there’s nothing serious in the things I say
  
You look serious
  
Nothing I do or say is serious
  
there should be a brightness in the eye of a non serious person.
(Pause).
  
  
  
A hole opened in the sky, but nothing filled it, and it occupied time past as well as time future. Men climbed a specific mountain in order to see into the hole-- this hole they had no idea of-- its existence like the hole in front of the eye that moves when the eye moves.
So these men-- better than blind, suhuufled in their shoes over the rocks, and balanced on the final uppermost rock, and fell at last onto the whole of which they knew nothing, and nothing changed.
  
Back in the city
The clocks were climbing the stairs. What stairs? The ones at the end of the hall-- but isn't that all stairs, don't all starts come at the end of a hall. Isn't that where all stairs are located. There are just a certain number of exceptions, but these exceptions don't prevent us from stating the obvious, because what is obvious is generally the case, about stairs particularly.
Once upon a time, This knowledge empowered me in particular. He stood with confidence, ascended with confidence. Time, which stretched out in front of him like it stretched out in front of everybody else, held a certain number of surprises for him, but he was prepared for these surprises, because he knew they were coming. Yes, he was upset when they happened, some of them, but he expected to be upset. So his expectations were fulfilled and there were no surprises. Sometimes, he had to check his watch and usually, often, he was never extremely surprised or upset, because it was approximately the time he imagined it to be before checking his watch. But he checked his watch just to make sure.
  
Politeness
  
Ah, is that what rules your life?
  
Its a good quality. It malkes life possible, above the level of the brutes
  
So it does
  
Well, it does
  
And what's beyond that? Politeness, I mean, because I agree that politeness is beyond the level of the brutes-- but what's beyond politeness.
  
You tell me
  
Outside the rules of the game, there are no rules. In other words there are no rules outside the rules of the game.
Imagine what adventures Max must have had
  
I can't possibly imagine
  
Come now, try
  
But what I imagine can't possibly be the equal to the fact
  
That's no reason not to do one's best
  
But I'm convinced my best isn't goof enough. Can you blame me for not wanting to humiliate myself in front of Max?
  
You care that much
  
Oh yes, I care very much what Max thinks of me.
  
Dear Max, , yiou see what an uncomfortable position Otto finds himself in.
  
I'm sure he sees it
  
He hasn't said he sees it
  
Shall we ask him iof he sees it?
  
All right, lket's as him. Dear Max, do you see what a terribly uncomfortable position poor Otto finds himself in
  
Yes. I see it
  
You see? I'm always willing to vouch for Max's ability to see things like that
  
Yes, I agree Max can see most anything that's there to see.
  
I think so
  
(Pause) Dear Max, there's a way to help us out of this dilema
  
I quite understand what you'd like
  
Do you?
  
Yes. You'd like to hear me tell about my adventures
  
Oh that would be nice
  
Adventures in the jungle, specifically
  
Yes, that's what I thought you meant
  
The south American jungle-- did you know we meant to be that specific
  
I certainly meant to be that specific.
  
(Pause) But: You've decided not to speak about it
  
Well, not completely
  
Oh? My appitite is wetted., My appitite is very wet, juicly wet, I might say
  
I've dicided to give hints.
  
Hints?
  
Yes. Occasional hints
  
Nothing more than hints
  
That's right, just hints
  
How disappointing
  
It doesn't have to be disappointing.
  
Oh, I know
  
What do you know
  
I can p[ick up on your train of thought
  
Can you really?
  
Of course I can
  
I'd like to hear you elaborate
  
Of course Max, as you know it gives me pleasure to elaborate, it always gives me pleasure to elaborate, because I'm such a very enthusiastic elaborator in general, about a wide variety of subjects, there's one thing I like to do very much, and that is to elaborate.
(Pause)
Which is why you decided to play the game of hints with us rather than the game of full and detailed explication. Don't even bother to say I'm right, I know I'm right.
  
You're right
  
Please, that isn't necessary.
(Pause)
My only question is-- when can we expect the first of these wonderful hints. No-- that wasn't phrased properly since in fact I do accept that we may already, even as of this vrery moment, have been given the first or even the second or third of this series of hints that we are going to be graced with thanks to the relative generosity Max is showing us-- and I only say rfelative you understand, because in spite of Max's excellent stratagy which I understand and appreciate, in this particular case in spite of my normal and admitted proclivities, I have to admit, honest as I should like to be in all matter of interaction with dear friend Max, honest as I should like to be I must admit that I would still prefer not hints-- but actualy, detailed recounting of experiences. I'm so sure they would prove-- these experiences, even even outsidstance my own wonderful fleshed out imaginings.
  
You've switched.
  
Yes I know I've switched. I've decided my previous pro- imagine it position was in fact, poverty strickedn in the face of the reality of Max's very tremendous adventures.
  
(Pause) How can you be sure they were tremendous?
  
Oh I just can
  
Give me a hint
  
A hint? From me? Goodness-- a hint about what
  
A hint about how you can be absolute certain my experiences were tremendous rather than, oh. . .say -- banal?
  
No, I'm sure they weren't banal experiences
  
While I don't for the life of me know how you can be so sure-- I'm not even asking for a full explination, I'm just asking for a hint.
  
Hints-- deserve hints in response?
  
Oh , I do expect parity. I'm not out to establish some matmathical basis
  
Oh, thank goodness dear Max, because mathmatics are not, alas, my strong point.
  
Well, their not your WEAK point Oliver
  
I'd have to didsagree
  
--I've seen you do some superiour mathmatics. Well, if not superiour, at least provocative.
  
Ah-- my poiunt exactly. I admit to provocative mathmatics, in lieu of being able to come up with superior mathmatics, I try to brace up my own sense of well being with provocative mathmatics but as you know only too well, dear Max, provocative mathmatics are not superiour mathmatics.
  
Too showy?
  
Exactly, Otto, too showy
  
I wouldn't be able to judge
  
I understand, But Max is able to judge.
  
Well, perhaps I'm not, since in my opinion, I've seen you do superior mathmatics.
  
(Pause) That's not kind, Max
  
Maybe it's a hint
  
--No such thing! (smiles) Can I make Max a drink?
  
Let me offer you a drink
  
There's nothing in the glass
  
(Pause)
Oh well, that's an oversight on my part.
  
I'll pass
  
I know
  
(Pause)
Isn't you arm getting tired?
  
Of course
  
Then . . .rest it
  
I'm trying to be polite
  
It isn't operating like that. It's the opposite
  
Think again
  
You're trying to force an unwelcome drink on me
  
You said it didn't exist
  
Well, it's empty, but it's a glass
  
Then take it, and I'll be able to relax my arm.
(Done)
You see? You take it from me, which doesn't mean you have to drink it
  
There's nothing to drink
  
Yes, we've established that
(Pause)
Your arm doesn't hurt, no?
  
Your arm was extended. Mine is comfortably tucked into my body
  
That must be it
  
Yes
  
(Sits)
This is to give you permission
  
That could mean sitting, or getting rid of this empty glass--
  
--Or something else
  
Do I have to keep guessing?
  
I'd suggest-- no guesses. But rather a significant zeroing in, instinct-like. Plunging straight to the heart
  
(Pause)
That sounds excellent
  
You have permission
(Pause)
Times up
  
Oh well, there's always tomorrow
  
Do you really believe that?
  
(Pause)
Unless I'm not here. But tomorrow, I assume, will turn up nevertheless
  
Do I have permission to rise?
  
Of course
  
You have permission to put the glass back on the shelf
(Done)
Can I offer you a drink?
  
No thank you
  
Ah. I like that. A man who doesn't drink
  
Is it because I don't like clouding my mind?
  
I was about to applaud, but now I withold my applause
  
You prefer it if my mind if clouded
  
It's not preference versus non-preference. It's an objective fact
  
I appologize
  
Never
  
I thought appology might be a way of clouding the mind
  
You misunderstand. I'M the one that never appologizes
  
I'm sure
  
Careful--
  
--Cloudy-- but sure
  
Ah
(Pause)
I appologize
  
Accepted
  
Really?
  
Have a seat
(Goes)
No-- wait a minute-- have a drink first
(Goes, pours, drunk)
What was it like.
  
Fire.
  
Pour me one, please.
(Done, drinks)
  
What was it like?
  
Fire!
(Both laugh, music)
  
Open a door once. You'll have no more trouble
  
Why this anguish?
The sudden warmth of his invitation seized me. I got a headach from holding back
  
Why this anguish, so wasted?
  
  
  
  
  
Are you a jaguar?
  
No.
  
Are you a spotted lepoard?
  
No
  
A wild boar?
  
No
  
(Pause)
How many guesses do I have left
  
(Figures, then--)
Five
  
I can't believe I've already used fifteen
  
But you have
  
I would have thought seven or eight
  
Fifteen. I always keep track
  
That must be your speciality
  
Not my specialty.
  
(Pause)
What is your speciality
  
If you can guess what animal, you'll have a clue
  
With only five guesses left, I may not
  
True
(Pause)
But you're certainly not going to give up til the very last guess?
  
I suppose I won't
(Pause)
Lynx
  
No
  
Amarillo?
  
No
  
Tiger
(heard shakes no)
Python
  
No
(Pause)
You have one more
  
I know
  
Don't be discouraged
  
Bager
  
No
(Pause)
I win
  
What do you choose as your reward
  
Ah, that's been worrying you
  
No it hasnt
  
I can see it has
  
You're very wrong
  
OK. My choice is, actually it's nothing so terrible. My choice is-- take off your dress
  
Just my dress?
  
Yes
(Pause)
Your outer dress. Just the first layer.
(She does)
Now it's your turn
  
OK
  
Chose an animal
(Pause)
Take whatever time you need
  
All right
  
You have one?
  
Yes
  
You really think it's the one you're closest too out of all others?
  
Yes.
  
(Pause)
Zebra
(Pause)
Am I right?
  
How did you do that?
  
(Pause)
Intuition
  
You must have had wonderful adventures in the Jungle.
In Borneo
  
Not really
  
Tell me about it
  
I don't think so.
You're experiences must have been fascinating. Were they fascinating.
  
They could be called fascinating
  
Could be called? You mean they weren't to you? To you they were banal, or ordinary, or boring, but to others of lesser experience--
  
I can't speak for others.
  
Do you think I would have found them fascinating?
  
I don't know what you find fascinating.
OK Anthony Rimbaud
can you make up your mind
to produce siongificant changes in your life that won’t promise more than a delicate maneuver can deliver?
  
I’m talking about speed, surface mail
  
Oh Anthony Rimbaud
can you submit yourself to multi-dimentional analysis
that doesn’t analyse the already obsce;enet data of hard fact
but rather
really gets into the you-know-what esoterica of feelings as plain as the nose on your face?
  
Face it. I’m alarmed
  
Face it, I’m kinda charmed by that
  
O Anthony Rimbaud
Jump first-- and whatever you call nervous feet
won’t get you to the starting line even
because after the celebration of general elation
you’ll already be far past what you wanted to begin with
  
What’s the real dope on this
  
You have to ask, smart ass?
  
Please-- wipe me out
  
Somebody did it better
before I offered the seat of my pants for a significant collision--
look, lips stick to whatever they pucker after
  
I consider each kiss a committment
  
I consider each committment like a jump
into the gene pool of imaginary castles in air-- but who walks after dark?
  
I don’t like being chained to the wall by other people’s imagination
  
Look, Anthony Rimbaud
Whenever imagination’s the subject
I pull out my anti-bullet revolver
which shoots better than it does mathmatics
because the number of bullets is no more
than a function of spiritual depth
  
Did you say death?
  
That’s never spiritual, Anthony Rimbaud. What that plumbs is tomorrows missed opportunities
  
Look,, Anthony Rimbaud
I can see your perpetual confusion
and what I offer is the solutuion
in the shape of a “why bothere ME about things
  
--If you had to makes bets
you’d never agree to the re-organization of the statistics department.
You know why?
Because statistics don’t even kill people.
  
You like swimming in shallow water the minute you discover
it goes on for miles enough to circle a globe that gives
the feeling of infinity in it’s super practical roundness
  
My head spins, of course
  
That’s what I had in mind, but I never thought of it as a mistake
  
Look Anthony Rimbaud
Just because I do something with committment
doesn’t mean that when push comes to shove
I can’t make committments in a very opposite direction.
You do the same, please
  
I see that happening, but I call it double trouble
  
Do I like trouble?
  
I do too, but I don’t get to talk about it like you do
  
Just open a different door. Get a handle on it
  
How come when you say handle
what I see is a punch in the mouth
  
You’re talking metaphores, I think
  
Everything’s a metaphore the minute I get my teeth in it
  
Look Anthony Rimbaud
The minute you the head bell rings itself, then somebody’s language says to you that unbeknownst
--I creep into a sound factory you never knew you called into being.
So therefore
take a coffee break but never drink coffee
  
Other things are bad for my nervces
  
You just lost them
  
I did not. I feel like a house on fire
  
Look Anthony Rimbaud
putting out blazes is a hellofa way to extend your sphere of influence, and don’t think I don’t wanna see that happen
but at the same time I want you to participate
in an after school party while you, me, and a couple of close friends
are still in what everybody calls mint condition
  
Could we make that a promise?
  
I never make promises because first I keep them
  
That confuses me
  
Look Anthony Rimbaud
to be dedicated to confusion is a good idea, so long as you don’t go under for the third time until you signed up for a deep water bank account.
That means
funds are liquid, but what floats is no loan of an emotion
but rather a load of responsibility you can see through like glass
Does water scare you?
Then don’t bother to swim
when a long drink gets you back to dry land just as fast
  
Fore some reason, I can’t drink with my mouth open
  
Look Anthony Rimbaud
You don’t have a problem there, you have a solution
  
I didn’t understand that
  
But now you do, so bottoms up. Now you do
(offered glass, drinks)
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
you won’t be better off tomorrow than you are today
  
Think abiut it Anthony Rimbaud
Your garden won’t have enough magnolia trees to carry a tune unless you plant magnolias.
And you say flowers don’t sing-- of course not,
but it takes more than poetry to plant an effective hook line and sinker
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
When you have a close relative
you never give him or her permission to depart from life’s highway unless the car they happen to be driving is a non-stolen vehicle so you can say “I don’t have crooks for relatives”
  
Then I’d say you’re lucky and half bored, both at once
  
You’re trying to manipulate my moral values
  
Are you getting emotional about it?
  
Not soon enough. I realize my inhibitions
  
If you realize your inhibitions, you’d immediately double tripple and quadrouple them with giving a second thought
  
Did I hear you say-- second sight?
  
Is that what you’re hot for?
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
You don’t change your pants, you just send them to the cleaners, which means somebodyt gets a bath even though they’re not going on television
  
Think abut it Anthony Rimbaud, if you want to make a name for yourself you have to fight real hard whenever the cream puff in your face says I’m having nights on the town but you’re not invited
  
I’m not looking for entertainment
  
What are you looking for
  
I’ll never tell, because I know enough to keep my mouth shuit whever the bricks start falling
  
Nothing’s going to pieces, Anthony Rimbaud-- what you call a tumble is just a coloring book that decided to change it’s modus operendus
  
Greeks to me
  
Nobody here knows any languages except think-tank
  
I thought that was a place, not a state of mid
  
You’ve been sent home, Anthony Rimbaud
  
This doesn’t feel like home
  
Quite right, because you disobeyed orders without even knowing how to go about it
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
To improve your behavior, improve your behavior
  
How?
Don’t ask until you’ve read up on at least seven sentimental subjects that don’t make you particularly excited
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
Your personal tomorrow is already in the ashcan of history
  
I can hope
  
Not unless you wanna look stupid in front of everybody you have a grudge against
  
Nobody;’s in that catagory. I make an effort to like people
  
See what I mean? That’s provocation in a big way
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
You could have friendship, so long as you butter your toast with ice-skates, because when the hot weather comes, emotionally you’ll wanna be way past toast
  
Did you say past-tense?
  
I said butter your lip
  
Did you tell me to button my lispe?
  
No, I said you talkj sweet, or of course you would if you could think of something important to say
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
anything you decide is important is probably evasive action, so therefore you should assume you have to begin again-- maybe a hundred times
  
Think about it Anthony Rimbaud
you’re running out of hypothetical steam, so when everybody offers a smile of assistance, don’t smile back--
JUST STAND THERE
  
Stand there?
  
That’s right, just stand there and don’t make another move
until you come up with one REALY PENETRATING IDEA!
(Pause)
  
Ah. Here’s what I call a complementrarty catastropy
  
Tell me about it
  
Briefly, I’m dead
  
Then how come I’m talking to you?
  
Smooth, sweet. but no kick
  
Then bend over now, please.
Add that position to your repetoire
and you’ll live to regret nothing you can’t highlight with
three contradictory fingers point to different parts of somebody else’s very desirable body
  
You know how I feel that body
  
Oh yes. But an unexpressed emotional vector goes down the drain
unless somebody gambles his life away with a verbal committment.
Can you still talk?
  
I’ve been saying too much
  
That’s what I mean. What I’m looking for is non-directional bable, and then I’ll know where your heart really lies.
  
Even I don’t know
  
Liar. That’s the best thing you have going for you
(Pause)
  
Why does the poetry go out of my life the minute I let passing time dictate no longer irrelevent rules
  
Such ideas are entertaining, but without much connection to reality
  
Is life supposed to keep me entertained?
  (Pause)
Hello life? Do you have an obligation to entertain me?
  
Should I play the part of life?
  
That's the idea
  
OK. I don't think I have an obligation to be entertaining
  
Who exactly put me here-- shall we say-- in your particular catagory
  
What's my catagory
  
Everything living. That includes me
  
You're in my catagory
  
Yes
  
(Pause)
You don't find it entertaining
  
No
  
I appologize
  
At least I get an appology. But I don't get entertainment
  
Should I go
  
Would that heighten the entertainment quotient?
  
Probably not
  
Then why go
  
(Pause)
I better go
(Goes)
  
Now I'm alone. And in fact, it's more entertaining to be alone than to be frustrated. Thank you, life
(Pause)
Is it more entertaining to be alone than to be frustrated. Well, yes-- in that my mind feels freer. I don't feel constraints on my imagination.
  
  
I'm not in control
  
Is this a problem?
  
No
(Pause)
I was announcing an achievement
  
It's an internal contradiction
  
No. When I say I'm not in control, what I mean is something else has taken over. It's not that I myself have achieved not being in control-- it's that I welcome what something else has been able to do with this raw material. Me.
  
(Pause)
I too, wanted to be able to philosophize without letting thought have anything to do with it
  
Of course
  
In fact I’m looking for a teacher
  
Why
  
I think the time is ripe
  
Oh please. Don't worry about it
  
Maybe I struck a deep responsive chord in somebody to whom I was speaking secretly?
  
That’s very possible
  
(Pause)
Sould we permit outselves to turn on the radio?
  
Weren’t you told? The radio is no longer relevent
  
I might have guessed. Whenever I develope an idea, it changes.
  
Time will tell.
  
The futiure will tell, yes.
  
No, maybe the past will tell even better.
  
Then the way I put it was right. Time will tell.
  
Right. Time will tell. But notice how this continual jumping into new ideas -- turns out to be quite predictable
  
What adventure superceeded that predictibility
  
Adventure?
  
(Pause)
Or is this the v end of the epoch of adventures
  
We'll have to do some further exploration to find out
  
I hope not
  
Ah-- there's you adventure
  
I hope not?
  
Yes
  
(Pause)
I hope
  
Yes
  
But I wonder if another word could be provoked. A different word
  
Different than "yes"
  
Yes
  
I doubt it
  
If only you belonged to the right species, you could perhaps jump over yourself
  
I’d be in line for a promotion
  
Promotion? I don't think so
  
What's my line of work
  
In my opinion?
  
Yes
  
I don't want to share that with you
  
Why not
  
I’m afraid it might interfere with self devolpment
  
That statement is especialy designed to provoke me
  
See? My species has been identified
  
Zebra
  
No
  
Hyena?
  
Not at all
  
Kangeroo
  
Just because a kangeroo leaps himself across the landscape-- don't think I'm capable of doing anything so spectacular
  
Ah, but in your dreams?
  
In my dreams, I am all things to all people
  
Even me
  
Even you
  
Then I've lost the animal quize
  
Don't worry. There'll be others--
  
Don't promise me a surprise because then I won't be able to recognize it
  
That's the surprise
  
  
Suppose, the sun comes out, and the entire world seems to brighten. But it’s never the entire world-- it’s just one small part of the landscape-- enjoying a momentary break in cloud cover
  
Let me just close my eyes and imagine I'm crossing a green field. In the sunlight? No, it's overcast-- You see what's happening. I'm trying to surprise myself and I can't
  
That's why I help
  
trying to be on my side by turning against me
  
against us both
  
That was supposed to surprise me
  
I admit that's possible.
  
(Pause)
What are the alternatives
  
Giving up, I suppose
  
Oh, this must be a retroactive decision
  
Yes. I gave up
  
I give up now
  
Surprise
(Pause)
It's the same thing
  
If it's the same thing, it isn't a surprise
  
Surprise
  
(Pause)
That makes it a surprise.
  
  
(Writes, stops)
Wise men have known all along, that all I had to do was keep the pen in motion over the paper
  
You mean-- they've known that all THEY had to do--
  
Who
  
(Pause)
Wise men
  
That's what I said
  
All right
(Pause)
And you keep the pen moving over the paper
  
I've stopped
  
Why
  
Not for the reason you think
(Pause)
In fact-- my wrist is giving me pain
  
Well, you tell me that, so now it IS the reason I think.
  
Right. But you can
't do anything more than IMAGINE the pain
  
Right
  
If you read what I wrote, would you be capable of imagining that also
  
Possibly. Unless what you wrote is really something that is really, deeply beyond me
  
I don't think I could pull that off
  
I don't either
  
Does anything hurt
  
Yes
  
What
  
My wrist
  
Really
  
See how I'm smiling? It's just an idea that came to me. My wrist doesn't really hurt
  
You respond to your environment
  
Yes I do
  
(Pause)
But you respond to your environment in a very particular way that might be yours alone
  
Well, my 'environment', seen as a totality, might be mine alone also
  
We don't share it?
  
Not a hundred percent
  
Of course not
(Pause)
That means I'm free to go
(Does)
  
(Pause)
Ah. Now we share being alone-- one hundred percent
(Pause)
Once I tried to write a letter with my left hand
But I never found out if it was hard to read because I never looked at it, plus
I never showed it to anybody else
BUT I feel certain it expressed something that only my left hand was able to express
(Pause)
Waiting for the flood gates to open, I suppose
  
(Pause)
Jesus christ-- am I really here alone? Well I can hardly claim to have erased every mental residue, so when I'm talking to myself, it isn't really myself only.
This-- universe of mine is still
(whirls)
relatively well populated
(whirls and falls)
  
(in)
Did you fall
  
Yes-- how the hell did you know that
  
Well, I heard a thud
  
(rising)
That's one explination
  
Do you have another?
  
Maybe we're well attuned
  
Of course we're well attuned
  
(Pause)
Well, then I don't need you here
  
Ok> I get it
(exit)
  
(Calls)
I'll need you here sometimes. Later. But not all the time
(Sits, picks up newspaper-- reads-- toss away)
This crap isn't what I wanted
(Presses temples: other looks in)
Go away.
  
No
  
Go away
  
No. Look at the wall
  
No
Look at the picture of a flower on the wall
(done, she looks away: Pause)
Do you have to look at it again
  
No
  
I wonder if it's still there
(Out, looks, closes)
Yes. It’s still there
  
Look away from it again again
  
Decisions, decisions.
(Done. Pause)
  
Cover your eyes
(Done)
Uncover them
(Done)
Is anything different?
  
No
  
This is a superficial perspective
  
There are two sides to every question and there are two sides to every perspective and I'm finding out they balance each other perfectly
  
You mean compleely
  
(Pause)
I'd like to get closer to you
  
--Back off
  
How
  
I'll demonstrate
(Goes)
  
Into what special loophole, do I apparently project all my verbal energy
  
I can't pick up on it
  
Oh yes, you manage to change the subject
  
Does everything "click in' yet?
  
If you change the subject, why not
  
(Pause)
That leaves a wide open field
  
Careful, I'm probably going to overpower you no matter what direction you head
  
Maybe I can find a loophole
  
I'll be in and out ahead of you
  
After that it'll be my space for a change
  
Breathe easy
  
I will
  
I mean now
  
Then shut up
(Pause)
Ah, nothing's moving
  
You need my imput
  
Her verbal pyrotechniques seem to be lighting up my personal horizon, damn it
  
Give thanks--
  
He does, but that doesn't eliminate mixed emotions
  
Ambivilances
  
Ah, you use words differently than I do
  
Go ahead. Hit me
  
(Pause)
I don't like following orders
  
Hit me.
(Pause. Exits)
  
Come back so I can hit you
(Pause)
Well. Thank god this hand didn't have to offend anybody
(Exit Pause She in other door. He in other door)
What was the first thing you noticed when you came to this city
  
I noticed how it was familar but confusing
  
Thank you
  
Why
  
That confirms my own understanding
  
Confused?
  
Yes
  
Then you don't mean understanding
  
(Pause)
I mean something I couldn’t put my finger on --but my head keeps turning in the right direction
  
Thank you
  
Please
  
This is amazing
  
What
  
I’m not grightened of things
  
No, I'm not frightened of things
  
(Smiles)
Even though we're still confused about certain things
  
We like that
  
If I went downstairs and stepped out the front door at this moment, how would I know in which direction to circulate
  
It would depend on your inner proclivities
  
I'd like to find a nice resturant
  
Hungry?
  
No, I'm talking about the ambience
  
Ah, what kind of people do you want to be surrounded by--
  
(setting up resturant tables)
No-- I only want the resturant to have one or two other customers. You see I don't want to be alone, but I don't want OUTSIDE brain activity to be oppressing my own brain activity
  
(Pause)
You just described an unresolveable paradox
  
What
  
You can't think unless somebody else helps
  
I didn't say I wanted to do any THINKING
  
Oh? Try putting a stop to it
  
Yes
  
You can do that?
  
Maybe
  
I don't think you can do that
  
(Pause)
If I could find such a resturant, I could find out
  
What would you order
  
I said I wasn't hungry
  
I think they'd throw you out if you didn't order something
  
Physically-- throw me out?
  
Yes
  
I'll order coffee
  
More
  
I'll order hors d'oeuvres
  
Like?
  
Like cheeze
  
That sounds like after dinner, rather than hors d'oeuvers
  
Then I won't
  
Why
  
Because I won't be having dinner--
  
Where do those ideas come from?
  
(Pause)
You're right. I could develope my ideas this way, all by myself
  
You see?
  
Go away--
  
Aren't we going out
  
Go away
  
To a resturant?
  
No
  
Why
  
Remember, nothing I say is serious.
But I’d like going to lunch. Do I like going to lunch in my favorite resturant, in my favorite city?
(PAUSE)
Of course I do
(Pause)
Shall we go to a resturant?
  
(Pause)
I don't know my way around this city. I'd get lost looking for a rersturant
  
Where are you now
  
Here
  
Where
  
In this room
  
Where is that. I mean in relation to the plan of this city as a totality
  
I don't know
  
Then you're lost right now
  
In a sense
(drum roll in distance)
  
  
But I'm getting my bearings from the objects around me
  
Not necessarily
  
Then I’m lost
  
Trust me.
  
Why
  
Trust me. We sit here, looking forward to lunch, but it’s dinner time--
Then we change our expectations appropriately--
  
Is that possible? Legions are in the streets
  
Why
  
All expectations are disrupted--
  
I don’t believe it
  
Look out the window
  
There is no window
  
Turn on the radio
  
It doesn’t work
  
Try it. Maybe now it works
(Pause go turn it on)
  
RADIO:
Legions. Legions are in the streets
  
See? Now it works
  
RADIO
  Legions are in the streets
  
What made it work suddenly
  
The necessity of the situation, I suppose--
  
RADIO
Legions, are in the streets, storming the streets, testifying to their own reality in the face of a reality that changes, inhabiting what were heretofore known as public places,
turing them into the guize of what could be hereafter be known
as living rooms, dining rooms, bedrooms--
  
devouring events, public and private,
so that generalization becomes
not just acceptable--
but the most delicate accomplishment of the human mind itself,
folded back, overitself like the coils of an intestinal machine
tracing the streets like maps of much, much better brain
  
visited, finally
by someone mysterious, with a superiour mind
who glances towards an appropriate dark corner
who smiles, who whispers--
easy to do things, when things are done
no longer for serious reasons
but just
for the mysterious pleasure of doing things--
so the joke, turns back on oneself, he says,
to engulf us completely, he says
as he disappears into new adventures
that have no serious meaning, after all
in the serious sense of things--
  
(clicking off radio)
  
I know the end of this story
  
How does it end.
  
A hole, opens in the sky over the city, but nothing fills it.
Men such as myself climb a specific moutain in order to see this hole-- this hole they haven’t see-- it’s existence like the hole of blindness in the center of the eye that moves when the eye moves--
  
So these men-- better than blind--
  
Where’s this mountain
  
Suffling in their shoes, up over the rocks, balancing on the uppermost rock, falling at last into the hole of which they knew nothing. And having disappeared. . .strangly enough. Nothing was different.
  
Back in the city-- clocks where still climbing the stairs to a room such as this room. And someone mysterious, with a superiour mind. followed them higher and higher--with confidence-- because time-- which stretched out before him like it stretches out in front of everyone else-- held a certain number of surprises for this man, but he was prepared for these surprises--
  
RADIO
--He was prepared
  
He knew they were coming
  
RADIO
He was prepared for these surprises
  
Andd yes, he was upset when they happened, some of them, but he expected to be upset
  
RADIO:
He was prepared
  
So his expectations were fulfilled, and there were no surprises. Though sometimes-- sometimes--
  
RADIO:
Sometimes, he had to check his watch. But often, he was never extremely surprised, and often, he was never terribly upset, because whenever he checked his watch-- it was always the approximate time he had imagined it to be, before checking his watch. But he checked it, and rechecked it, just to make sure.
  
  
THE END